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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Mmmm Today kind of moody .....
today actually tot can enjoy myself wif her de but haix .... thing got bad.

Jus now went out wif hui juan ... so long nv go out already tot can go out wif her n relax myself & enjoy time being wif her ... but today is a wrong day.
jus nw i go hougang festive market de NTUC meet her .... we wanted to buy food n go my house cook n watch movies de ... when we was at the NTUC we got nth to buy she oso dunno wat to buy cos she eaten lunch already ....
when yesterday she say wan come my house then on tat point of time i think sure very sian de lor .. i try to my her happy try making her more things to do by toking to her &making her smile but no use leh she oso sian sian.
when we finish the 1st show she s kind of sian liao lor ...
she then when in to my room n lay down n rest ... got call her wake up ask her pei me watch another show but she die die oso dun wan ... when i watching the show half way she walk out n say wan to leave already .... she say sian until mad, BUT jus now ask her go out n shop ( say dUN Wan!!! )
after tat she walk to the door i block her .... she say go away she wan to leave .... die die oso wan leave .... I ask her can wait for me i pack my house,change then can go together but she dun wan .... she die oso wan go ...
tat moment i really very angry got nth to say ....
but when i alone i think .... maybe she stress of her Homework & really very sian ....
i dunno wat to do lah ...
wan her go out wif me happy as a fren oso cannot meh ?
i jus wan her happy mah....
wan her always smile only ....
is tat hard for her to go out wif me ...
n jus be like last time ...
If she really thinking about something why can't she jus say out n maybe i can help her slove ...but she tell me tat she got homework nv do > N i say come out must enjoy urself mah why make urself keep thinking so much but .... she nv listen to wat i say ....
maybe it was wrong to call her out today ... :( sOb :(

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